Difficult stuff.

I know. Horrible title. Don’t hesitate to suggest a new one ;)

For my history class, I had to read a novel called Out of this Furnace by Thomas Bell, which told the story and lifestyle of an immigrant laborer in Industrial America. I find the story very interesting, but the thing I’m going to write about today is a conversation that struck me as very true.

In the story, a workman called Kracha was talking to his friend, who was another worker. He complained about the bosses who kept cutting wages and making them do difficult work, but then his friend said that they couldn’t blame them, because if they were in the bosses’ place, they would probably do the same.

This seemed very true to me. We tend to complain about other people, but if we were in their shoes, would we do the same? We think that we are better than most, but are we? Maybe, if we were given the choice to get whatever we want by sacrificing the wellbeing of others, we would do it. After all, we do not know them.

I don’t really know what to think about this. Maybe I am no better than the people I hate most. Maybe if I were in their position, I would turn out exactly the same. Who knows?

I think this teaches me not to judge others too quickly. I am very limited, and I do not know what is going on in other people’s lives, and therefore I have no say in anything. There seems to me to be much more about this subject, but I haven’t dug deep enough.

This is just my ramblings for today. Feel free to share your thoughts!

Is love a bad thing?

Yesterday, as I was doing my late-night tumbling, I came across a picture that was heartbreaking.

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Doesn’t it show just how messed up our world is, for us to understand hate more than we understand love? After all, we awarded a man who killed two others, but when he admitted to love another man, he was let go. 

Why is it that a lot of us understand the reasons behind wars but we cannot accept the fact that one man might love another? I don’t know how to think about this, but strange as it might sound, we put more importance on other things other than love.

Is it so hard to understand that one man loves another? He is not trying to hurt anyone. We claim that it is abnormal, that it is a sin, and that it is not what God intends for us. But why do we care about that? Loving someone is an act of love, not of hate. If there is one thing God intends for us, it is for us to love one another. That man is not trying to hurt anybody by his sexuality. When does killing someone become more respectful than loving? 

I have to admit that I had been one of those people that see homosexuality as a sin, because the Bible says so. But lately my mind has changed. I had always lived in a conservative surrounding, and I have never opened my eyes about these issues. I have always blindly followed what my teachers and the priests told me. But living here in the US has changed the way I see things. It is so strange how we, as Christians, are all right with wars and executions (even though we are always taught to forgive), but we cannot tolerate two men, or two women, who love each other. Doesn’t the Bible teach us about love? If God’s teaching could be summed up in one word, it would be “love”. But why is it that we try to stop people from loving each other, just because it is not “normal”?

I am not saying that Christianity is bad. I am not saying that from now on I am going to stop believing in God. I’m just trying to sort out my priorities here. Should I care how people love each other? No. If anything, it teaches people to be kinder, to be more caring and loving. And I think it is far more important than judging others.

Again, I’m sorry for the inactivity. Sometimes I sit down and try to write, only to realize that I don’t have any topics to write about. So from now on, I am going to write short stories and poems too, just to keep writing. :)


“We are so accustomed to noise, that we are not able to appreciate silence anymore.” Those are the words a very wise old man told me in Lake Shrine, a very peaceful mediation area in Pacific Palisades, just an hour away from the heart of LA.

I agree completely. Every day we are exposed to noise, from conversations, the drones of cars, the ringing of phones. We don’t know it, but we never truly experience silence, and for that reason we have missed a lot of things.

We tend to dismiss silence, branding it as useless, strange, and boring. We look at people who are quiet and think that they are odd. When we are alone in our home, we turn on the TV so that we can hear voices. What we forget is that sometimes we need silence, for it has the power to make us realize a lot of things that are hidden from us.

I have to say that silence actually speaks a lot, teaching us about ourselves. Have you ever been somewhere so quiet, with no sound to be heard, and felt like the silence is very loud? I have, and I can say that it allows you to think. Rather than believing that silence is useless and boring, I’d like to say that it actually speaks to us, telling us about ourselves and the world, making us think more than we are able to when we are surrounded by noise. Through silence I discover parts of myself I have never known before, I find new ideas that have been buried for so long, and most importantly, tells me what is important and what is not. A few hours of silence can help us sort out our problems, because most of our worries are actually not that important anyway.

Of course, I’m not saying that noise is bad, and that we should all stop talking. I like good, interesting conversations more than anything, but sometimes we need a break from all that. Sometimes we need quiet. Sometimes we need a time to think. Sometimes we need to let our worldly problems go and just appreciate life. :)







Here are some pictures from Lake Shrine. It’s a truly wonderful place. We all know that LA is a bustling, busy city with plenty of stress, and this little sanctuary is a treasure.



I went to Long Beach yesterday, and while at the pier, I realized that everyone, me included, was looking at the beautiful scenery through their phones, taking pictures and videos. It made a very strange impression, and I wonder if this has become the new normal.

Isn’t it weird that we look at beautiful things through lenses? Why can’t we be satisfied with looking at it with our own eyes? While we are trying so hard to capture the moment and make it last forever, we are missing out on the things we could have experienced if only we put our phones down and enjoy ourselves.

I remember the time I was going hiking in Henninger Flats. There were no outlets there and my phone died within hours of getting there. I was very disappointed at first, for I wasn’t able to take pictures to send to my family and friends. However, I also realized that it was actually better. I could focus on the things around me, I could have lots of fun with my friends without the phone distracting me, and best of all, I could see everything as they truly are, without having to pull out my phone whenever I see something beautiful. What I love most was looking down at the city below us in the middle of the night, watching the city lights blinking like stars while overhead, the real stars were spread out across the night sky. It felt magical.

Thinking about it now, I wonder if I had my phone at that time, will I lose the moment? Will I see the things I noticed that night, or will I just be spending half of my time taking photographs?

Phones have become such a huge part of our lives, and I agree that they are very important. However, there are things that it can never capture. Taking pictures and looking at them afterwards is a very different experience from observing things and letting it sit in your memory. Talking to someone face to face is much more intimate than telephoning or texting. The sad thing is that we are getting more and more dependent on our phones. Even when we are surrounded by our friends, we still check our phones often. Is that natural? I don’t think so.

From now on I am going to limit my phone use. I won’t be bringing my charger everywhere with me anymore. I’ll save battery power to get home by not using it for unnecessary things. And I am also going to reduce the amount of data I get in a month, from 2 gb to 600 mb. I think baby steps to overcoming this phone addiction would be a nice change. :D

There goes my rants, now have some pretty pictures I took yesterday. Don’t worry, I didn’t spend all my time taking pictures.

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Hi, first of all I would like to apologize for being so inactive for so long. School turns out to be time-consuming after all, but now summer vacation has started, and although I am still going to take summer classes, I hope I can write more.


The topic I’m going to write about today is that of poverty. A lot of people see poverty with pity, disgust, even resentment. Some even consider it to be a sin. But is it really a sin? After all, some people cannot help but be poor. What if they are born in a poor family? Is their mere existence a sin? Besides, as long as they do not harm anyone, then that should be okay, right?

However, I came to understand that poverty is sin, but it is not the sin of a single person, but that of the whole society. As we all know, we live in a world where money is worth more than anything else, and where the rich get their wealth from the less fortunate. And it just goes on: the rich gets richer and more powerful, while the poor’s struggles become even more difficult. Therefore we can conclude that poverty is really a sin, not that of the poor, because most of them can do nothing to get out of the dark pit they’re thrown in, but a sin of the rich, because they can do something but never do. It is especially a sin of those who conquer the world, who turn a blind eye on the suffering of others, and who exploit them instead of helping them, all for the sake of themselves. 

As we all know, most crimes stem from poverty. People will do what they can to survive, even if they have to kill. Moreover, poverty also creates jealousy, envy, resentment, and other negative feelings that would later turn into actions. And this makes me think: if we address poverty, if we tackle them and try to make society more prosperous, would the world be a better place? After all, if everyone is well-clothed, well-fed, and sheltered, there would be less crimes, for people won’t be pushed to doing things they are not proud of just to survive.

I read an article about countering homelessness which really angered me. However, it also shows our mistakes in the way we perceive poverty. Instead of seeing it as a sin of us all, we tend to blame it on the poor. But do they have a voice? No. And that is why we have to be more compassionate, more helpful, and try our best to help, no matter how small the action might be. 

Price and Prize of Love

Here is something I wrote about the essay Joyas Voladoras, written by Brian Doyle. I recommend everyone to read this essay, for it is beautiful and thought-provoking, and emotionally relatable.

It begins with a hummingbird. Them it shifts to whales. And it finally ends with humans. At first glance, we might not see the connection, but once we have finished Doyle’s Joyas Voladoras, everything makes sense.

There is a beautiful message written in this essay, one that I believe we can all relate to. The heart is a mysterious, immeasurable thing. We can never understand how the heart works, and Doyle shows us just how beautifully complex it is.

First, Doyle began with a comparison. There are many kinds of hearts, each one unique, with their own characteristics. Some hearts are like the hummingbird’s: passionate, easy to love, and ambitious, while others are more like the tortoise’s, which burn slowly and comfortably. It shows just how diverse the heart is. Some are small, others are as big as a house. Some are open, while others close their doors in fear of being hurt.

And this brings us to another important point. The heart is a fragile thing, which can easily be broken, and even if we manage to put it back together again, the scars still remain. Doyle wrote: “All hearts finally are bruised and scarred, scored and torn, repaired by time and will, patched with force of character, yet fragile and rickety forevermore.”

Maybe this is what scares us. Maybe this is why we build walls around ourselves, around the rooms of our hearts where we are the most vulnerable. Maybe this is why we are, to a certain extent, afraid of loving others. Because what if the person we love does not love us back? Or what if they have to go their own separate ways? What if we lose them? Can we cope with the pain, or will our hearts break and crumble?

Some of us are so scared of having our hearts broken that we close the doors to our hearts and refuse to let anyone in, hoping that this will protect us from the uncertainties of life. However, there are things we can never control, and maybe at one moment we are perfectly safe behind our brick walls, but then comes someone who breaks it down in an instant, leaving us naked, exposed, and very, very afraid.

This is not always a bad thing. True, having an open heart that loves passionately means that we are vulnerable to a lot of dangers. We can easily be hurt. We might lose hope. But between these disadvantages, we gain a beautiful, wonderful ability to love, to experience just how far our hearts can go, and to transcend ourselves and become a better person, a person we never imagined we could ever be.

All this is out of reach for someone who hides behind the confines of their own fears. Although they might be safe from the storm outside, they can never see the sun either. And I believe that even when the storm destroys everything in its path, the sun would come out again, because our hearts can always be healed by the touch of love. The scars will remain, that is certain, but when faced with all the happiness life can bring if we only let it, those scars would be nothing more than a nightmare we have conquered, one that cannot touch us anymore, for we are stronger now than we have ever been.

People are Equal

Yesterday at Church, the priest said something wonderful, which I’m going to share here:

If there is one thing we need to change, it’s the perception that one life is worth more than others.

It’s in our nature to differentiate other human beings. Some think that one race is more worthy than the others, some think that men are better than women (or vice versa!), and some believe that people in another religion are worth less than themselves, because they are not on the “right path”.

I personally agree with the quote, that human lives are all equal. It doesn’t matter how old you are, how much money you have, how many friends you have, how good you are at something: it doesn’t give you the right to look down upon others. It doesn’t give you the right to oppress others, and you are not justified in doing so. Not at all.

I have seen a lot of racism, both in my home country and in the US, and it’s rather stupid. What does race have to do with anything? We are all humans, and we are all equal. Skin color, facial features, appearances: they doesn’t determine how much we are worth. We are all beautiful, we are all God’s creations, and we should live side-by-side in harmony and equality.

Next, the rich often doesn’t care about the poor. For example: how many of us care to talk and give money to the homeless? We might have an argument: that they’re not working and that they don’t deserve our money, for they will only spend it on alcohol and drugs, but is that the right thing to do? We don’t know what they’re going through, so we shouldn’t judge. Our spare change might help them live another day. It’s not hurting us, anyway.

And the hardest thing to understand is this: that good and bad people are equal. You might say that it isn’t true, that good people are worth more than evil ones, but I say no to that. Everyone has good and bad in them: it’s our nature as human beings. And so everyone has the chance to change and become good. This is why we shouldn’t look down on them. Who knew what made them bad? Sometimes they can’t help it. After all, circumstances are unpredictable.


In the end, the conclusion is always this: love everyone. It doesn’t matter who they are, what they do, how much they have. We are all human beings, and we are created equal. We shouldn’t judge others, shouldn’t make fun of others, no matter how blessed we might be.


Admit it, everyone: there is at least one aspect of our life that we want to change. It could be our appearance, our intelligence, our personality, the friends we have, the job we do, the place we live in; the list goes on.

It is normal to want change, it is good to strive for a better life. We all have things we don’t like, and it’s okay to change, as long as it’s still reasonable.

If you want to change how you look, just dye your hair, work out, wear different kinds of make-up. Tired of your job? Find another one you like (it’s not as easy, but hey it isn’t impossible). Want to be friendlier and nicer? Just smile :)

So now, for our late New Year’s Resolution, let’s change one thing about us one aspect at a time, until we become a better person. Remember, though, that change don’t happen overnight (unless you’re cutting your hair short), so baby steps are important.

Here’s how we do it: First, we write on a piece of paper the things you don’t like about yourself and the things that are unsatisfactory in your life. You will have a long list. But then you should rule out unimportant things that you shouldn’t worry about, like maybe your weight (as long as you’re not too fat or too thin, just be yourself. Don’t let society tell you how much you should weigh) or the things you can’t change anyway (your age, race, etc). There’s no point in trying to change them, and you should try being happy with what you are. But say, you’re easily angered. You can try to change that. It won’t harm yourself or anyone else.

And then, for the next few months, try to change little by little. Look at the list every night before you go to sleep, and make a mental chant that tomorrow you will become a better person with a  life that makes you happy. You will wake up feeling refreshed and optimistic.

By the end of each month, you should cross out the things you have changed, and it will bring you so much happiness to see those scratched-out words. 


That’s it for now, folks. :D

School will be starting in a week. Wish me luck!